Insecurities

Written by: Me

I sit here in the darkness
And wonder what might have been
If I had followed my instincts and let you in

Losing myself in my stupid insecurities
Need to let it go
Can’t seem to stop these feelings
I wonder if you know

I miss your smile and how you’d make me laugh
I wish I could start over and tell you how i feel
Instead of denying everything in my heart

But I was scared of being hurt
And never wanted to be alone
I realize now that would never happen
I ruined it all

Losing myself in my stupid insecurities
Need to let you go
Can’t seem to stop these feelings
I wonder if you know

It’s been a while
I know it doesn’t matter anymore
But I can’t take the pain
I want you to know

I understand it's my fault
There's not much we can do now
I'm sorry that I hurt you
That's not what i intended to do

Lost myself in my stupid insecurities
It’s time to let you go
Even though I can’t stop these feelings
I wanted you to know

I thought you’d hurt me
I thought you’d cause the pain
I realize now that you are perfect
And I’m the one to blame